Monday, January 28, 2013

Outage 2013.

It's that time again.

Lane is in full on outage mode.  (It's a work thing...)  My least favorite time of year.  I basically become a single mother for 2.5 months and my husband becomes a zombie from work overload.  

But here we are and I'm so not ready to take this on.  THREE kids, cold weather, anxiety... not a good mix.

I don't want to write this blog and sound whiny.  But you might be hearing from me a lot more considering that I won't be interacting with people over the age 6 much for the next few months. 

So here I am.  I guess I'm ready because I have to be.  

I'm thankful that my husband has a great job.  I'm thankful that the Lord has blessed us with three awesome little ones.  

I'm praying that in the next few months I will learn to rely on God more than I ever have.  I need to give him my fears and my anxieties and get through each day.  I need to be a good mom to these babies.  I need to be willing to ask for help.  (Thank the Lord for my wonderful family!) I need to pray, pray, pray.  I need to make time for exercise.  I need to eat healthy and sleep good.  These are the things that will keep me sane.  

I need to stay on top of the little things... the laundry, the dishes, the laundry, the cleaning, and more laundry.  (If you know me, you know I have a SERIOUS problem with laundry.)  But it's these little things that will keep life more simple, less cluttered and less stressful.  Looking at piles of laundry and dirty dishes = STRESS to me. 

These three make me so happy.  I pray that I would enjoy them and love on them.  I pray that I would be a good mama and friend to these munchkins.  

And to you out there who do this all the time... You single mothers... seriously, you amaze me.  Your strength, your patience, your drive... all of it.  Amazing.  Props to you!  I think I said this last outage and I'm saying it again because you ladies blow my mind.

Lord, help me!  Here we go...

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Happy Birthday Claire.

I haven't blogged for soo long.  

Life has been crazy.  We've been staying home a lot.  It's been the best thing for us right now.  Especially for the little guy. We're still figuring things out.  Figuring each other out.  We learned quickly that Zoomie likes to be home.  After a night out, we have a few days of crazy, whiny, fussiness, so it's just better to avoid all of that completely.  We're slowly starting to hang out with friends again.  So if you haven't seen us for months, it's not because we don't love you, it's because we just need time.  

Felt the need to explain but I'm really writing a post for one specific reason...


 My sweet Claire is six.

How have six years gone by already?  People always told me that time flies when you have kids and it really really does.  

I remember the day she was born like it was yesterday.  She was ten days late and I was so ready to hold her in my arms.  My labor was fast and furious and then there she was.  The love of our lives, our first little peanut, finally.  

Claire is the sweetest, smartest, silliest little person I know.  She hardly ever gets into trouble.  She is so incredibly helpful with her siblings.  She is one of my favorite people in the world to talk to.  She loves to use the word "fascinating".  She is truly an old soul who just gets life.  She is content and happy.  And she loves Jesus.

Claire, I cannot even put into words how proud I am to call you my daughter.  You amaze me everyday with your big heart and your inquisitive mind.  I love that you ask questions, every day, all day.  And I will never get tired of your stories.  You are so beautiful inside and out.  I'm so thankful for you.  You bring so much joy to every single person in our family.  I love you to pieces!  Happy Birthday.