Monday, January 28, 2013

Outage 2013.

It's that time again.

Lane is in full on outage mode.  (It's a work thing...)  My least favorite time of year.  I basically become a single mother for 2.5 months and my husband becomes a zombie from work overload.  

But here we are and I'm so not ready to take this on.  THREE kids, cold weather, anxiety... not a good mix.

I don't want to write this blog and sound whiny.  But you might be hearing from me a lot more considering that I won't be interacting with people over the age 6 much for the next few months. 

So here I am.  I guess I'm ready because I have to be.  

I'm thankful that my husband has a great job.  I'm thankful that the Lord has blessed us with three awesome little ones.  

I'm praying that in the next few months I will learn to rely on God more than I ever have.  I need to give him my fears and my anxieties and get through each day.  I need to be a good mom to these babies.  I need to be willing to ask for help.  (Thank the Lord for my wonderful family!) I need to pray, pray, pray.  I need to make time for exercise.  I need to eat healthy and sleep good.  These are the things that will keep me sane.  

I need to stay on top of the little things... the laundry, the dishes, the laundry, the cleaning, and more laundry.  (If you know me, you know I have a SERIOUS problem with laundry.)  But it's these little things that will keep life more simple, less cluttered and less stressful.  Looking at piles of laundry and dirty dishes = STRESS to me. 

These three make me so happy.  I pray that I would enjoy them and love on them.  I pray that I would be a good mama and friend to these munchkins.  

And to you out there who do this all the time... You single mothers... seriously, you amaze me.  Your strength, your patience, your drive... all of it.  Amazing.  Props to you!  I think I said this last outage and I'm saying it again because you ladies blow my mind.

Lord, help me!  Here we go...


Amber Ahola said...

I love your honesty. Great blog! Beautiful children! I will pray for you!

noelle said...

Oh man it's here again!! You are way stronger than you realize, and an amazing mom. I've always looked up to you. I will be praying for you and I know it will only make you a stronger mom and wife!

Erin said...

Amber, thank you for your prayers! I started following your blog! I know we deal with a lot of the same stuff so I'm excited to read what your write.

And Noelle, thank you! Seriously, words of encouragement and prayers are the biggest help! Thank you so much!

Grammy Pammy said...

I know because I too was an "Outage Widow" twice a year from the time Anni was born over 30 years ago. I thought I was going to go insane some of the times. I managed to figure out there were ways to make it easier every outage got better. Well as good as they could possibly get anyway.
I decided there was not a thing i could do about the awful long hours, especially bad when Richard had the night shift, that was horrible. My anxiety really went through the roof with those times. The girls didn't understand why they never saw their Dad and why they had to stay quiet or we would just leave and go do the park etc. weather permitting.
Friends helped, play dates helped and finally when both girls were in school all day that was so much easier.
I learned to like being with just me after the girls went to bed. Listened to myself complain that Richard wasn't home with me at night or in bed if he was working the long days. i stopped fighting it, found the new schedule for that time. Learned so much about myself during those times, I really did.
We were blessed like you say with that job. It made us comfortable in our home, food on our table, extra to do fun things too.
As Richard always says, "Nuclear Power has been berry berry good to us" =)

You will look back and honestly forget the hard times. Plan something, somewhere to go with your kids. I would do things with other outage moms as well.

Do your laundry.... hehheheh
Much love sweetie...hang in there..xooxox
Praying for you too

Erin said...

Hi Pam! Thank you so much for your advice and encouragement! Seriously it means so much coming from you! You did it for so many years and you came out alive! Im getting into my groove with this outage... Slooooowly. And I know it will get easier as the kids get older. And you are so right! I'm really really enjoying my evenings alone! Thanks pam! This made my day!