Sunday, October 14, 2012

I haven't blogged for weeks.  I've been in a weird place.  I've just needed time to figure stuff out.  I'm trying to figure our little guy out, trying to balance life with three kids, a husband who works a lot but still needs me, and a house that is never ever clean.  How do I do this??  I'm getting there.  I'm not there yet, but it'll happen eventually... I hope.

I feel like I finally have something to blog about today...

My little guy is finally loving me.  Really, truly, loving me.  I learned this today when we spent time a friends house for a birthday party.  The house was full of people.  Ha Eum went outside into the back yard for minute to explore.  I could see him from where I was and as he walked back in he called out, "Mama!  Mama!" and searched for me.  My heart melted.  This was the moment.  This was the moment I finally felt like his mama.  I had to blog about this.  I want to remember this day.  I want to remember the look on his little face as he looked around the room for me.  He came over and climbed up on my lap, just for second as if to say, "Just checkin' in mama", then he scooted off of me and went to play some more.  This is a huge step for us. 

I'm so proud to have this little man in our lives.  He is still wild and crazy, but everyday we see more and more of his sweet tiny heart.  Give us a couple more months and we'll be golden.