Thursday, August 30, 2012

So a little update... The little one finally fell asleep after about 3 hours of crying for his foster mom:( My heart is breaking. It's so sad to see him hurting so badly. This is a part of the adoption process that isn't talked about much. He is grieving the loss of his foster family big time right now. All we can do is hold him and love him.

Now that I have a minute I want to post about yesterday. The big day. The day we became a family of five.

Yesterday went good. We arrived at Eastern Social Welfare Society at 1:00 pm. 30 minutes early. We were waiting in the office for our social worker to come and get us. We filled out some paper work and waited some more. It was HOT. Probably 85 degrees outside and 100% humidity. Inside was a teeny bit better, not much.

After filling out some paperwork we were taken into another room upstairs where we watched a video about Eastern Social Welfare Society. There was another couple in the room with us who were also going to bring their baby home.

This is where is gets good... After the video, we were given a tour of Eastern. The checked out the nursery, where our son was until he was 4 months old. It's so incredible seeing that room full of little lovies! And the sound of their cries is like heaven. I'm serious. What a sweet sound. So many tiny innocent voices in one room, all crying together. What a beautiful thing Eastern has goin' on.

So as were checking out the nursery I turned and looked and there he was on his foster moms back. I immediately began to sob. And so did his foster mom. I walked over to her and she turned so I could see Ha Eum on her back. Her and I cried for a few minutes and held each other. She knew this was the day I had been waiting for and the day that had come too soon for her. She touched my face and wiped my tears. We couldn't speak to each other at all, but there were no words needed. I knew that she knew that I'd love him.

The director of Eastern let us have our little cry session for a few minutes and then led us to another part of the building to finish the tour. Then we waited some more before our official meeting with the foster mother, Ha Eum and her daughter in law.

Finally it was time. Time to see my boy play and be crazy and just be a... BOY. Geeeez, he is SUCH a boy. He's busy busy busy. He never stops. I had no idea how different this would be from my girls.  We all sat on the floor, with our shoes off of course. And we talked about Ha Eum. About his eating habits, his sleeping habits (which are horrible by the way... bed at midnight?!?) Ha Eum warmed up to Lane really quickly. Within 10 minutes they were playing and laughing. Lane and the baby played while I talked to the foster mom with our translator. We exchanged gifts and cried some more. Our hour was up like the blink of an eye. I had so many questions I wanted to ask but I didn't get to any of those. I was too busy watching our son.

All of a sudden the social worker said, "Okay. It's time for you guys to go back to your hotel so let's head out". Wow. Okay. This is wild!  We're just going to suddenly be the parents of a 20 months old baby...

I'm sooo tired I'm falling asleep. I'll finish my story tomorrow! Goodnight from South Korea. We'll be in San Francisco in 30 hours!

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Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Be ready for a picture overload today!

Bibimbap on the plane!

View from our room! You can see the park right across the street! Can't wait to take Ha Eum there!

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8 hours until we meet him...

I'm sitting in our hotel room in Seoul. We have the most insane view of the city from up here on the 37th floor.

I feel a lot of peace this morning. No stress, no anxiety.

Our flight went well. I am not a good flyer AT ALL. But we made it here, typhoon and all. We checked into our hotel and asked about the typhoon and they said, "It's happening right now. This is the typhoon". No wonder why when our plane landed it felt like I was on the worlds craziest carnival ride. It was awful. But when things got rough, I'd just close my eyes and thank God that we were about to step foot in the same country as our tiny one.

We meet our son in 8 hours. I can't even believe this. I feel so calm. Maybe I'm just in shock. I know today will bring so much joy, but at the same time my heart will break for Ha Eum's foster mom. The woman who has loved him and cared for him since he was four months old. She's been there with every milestone. She watched him learn to babble and crawl and take his first steps. I will be forever grateful to this woman who taught our son about love. And she will always be a part of his life.

So... time to get ready. Time to iron our clothes and head out for one of the biggest days of our lives so far.

Please pray for us. Pray for peace over our meeting with his foster family. Pray for his foster mom. Pray that when we go and we take him with us, he will feel in his little heart that it's right.

Today is the day. August 29th, 2012. The day we meet our son.

P.S. Pictures coming later!

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Monday, August 27, 2012

On our way!

This is surreal. Our flight was delayed a few hours because of the typhoon but we're almost ready to board. We're coming baby!!!

Saturday, August 25, 2012


Thursday morning I found out that our son had his visa interview scheduled for 1:00 the following day!  I cried off and on throughout the day.  The visa interview is one of the last steps in this whole crazy process and it usually means that you are only days away from getting THE CALL.  The call where they say, "He's ready.  Book your flights!"  So... we found out about the visa interview and I emailed our agency.  She told me since it was on a Friday and everything closes for the weekend that we'd have our travel call by the end of next week.  I was excited because the end of next week was not far off... of course in my heart I wanted it to be sooner than the end of next week.

I woke up yesterday morning, happy knowing that we'd be getting the call the following week.  I was ready to go about my day.  Get the girls ready for school, take them to school, run some errands, etc.  At 7:45 the phone rings, which is not unusual at this time but my heart seriously jumped out of my chest and I just had a feeling.  I answered.  "Hi Erin, it's Regina from AAC.  I was wrong!  Your son is ready to come home now!"  FINALLY!!!  I have been waiting to hear these words for 11 months and 16 days!  

So flights are booked.  We're flying out Monday, getting to Korea on Tuesday, and getting our little guy on Wednesday!!!  Wednesday people!  We'll finally be parents to this little guy who I have thought about and prayed for for almost 2 years. 

Finally!  I'm gonna say it again... finally.

Also, please pray for our travels.  Typhoon warning for Tuesday in South Korea... the day we fly in.  Oh boy.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

19 days and counting...

It's been exactly 19 days since we were told that it would be about 2 to 4 weeks until we'd meet our little one.  These have been the longest 19 days of my life.  I've kind of been living in a haze.  I'm just constantly on edge.  Not moody,  but just feeling like I need to get things done and get my baby home and there's nothing I can do about it.  At this point I'm just frustrated and sad and anxious.  Going into this I never thought it would be such an insane emotional roller coaster.  But it is.  It's such a crazy feeling when you love this little person so much and you know you are only weeks away from holding them in your arms but you can't.  You just can't.  Aaaaahhhh!  I just want to scream.  This is me venting.  

Baby boy, we are almost there!  We will be with you soon.  My heart is breaking every day because I want to be with you!  

Can't wait to write the blog telling everyone that we're getting on that plane!  SOON!  I hope!

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

He's almost home!

This may be the first time I've ever posted two blogs in one day but I am so beyond thrilled to share this with the world that I just have to.  

If you know how the adoption world works this will be easy to understand... if not, I'll try and explain it well.  On July 24th our son's exit permit was submitted to the Korean government.  From that point you would normally wait about a month for that paper work to be reviewed and accepted so that they can finish some more paperwork and give him a passport allowing him to leave the country and come home with us.  

On Friday Lane and I were leaving to go out of town for our ten year anniversary trip.  We were so excited to relax.  I was soo content with our place in the adoption world.  Knowing that we'd get word about our baby in about a month or so was keeping me happy.  We stopped to get gas before we left town and I checked my email on my phone... as I usually do about twenty times a day.  I had an email from our agency, which wasn't unusual since we're nearing the end here, but the subject line read, "WOW!  Exit Permit approved!"  I began crying uncontrollably and praying and thanking God.  How in the world???  Basically it took 9 calendar days for us to get our exit permit approved which is out of this world.  It was fast and unexpected and a HUGE deal when you've been waiting for your little one to come home for a year a half.  

What an insane blessing!  

So this is what this all means... We were told that our son would probably be ready to come home in 2 to 4 weeks!  Say what???  Yep.  That's right.  2 to 4 weeks people.  At this point I'm pretty sure it'll be closer to 4 weeks.  There are a lot of families waiting to get that call that their sweet babies are ready to come home and we're on the bottom of the list.  But he'll be home soon!  So soon!!!  In a few short weeks we'll be getting on a plane to go meet our son for the first time.  I get chills just thinking about it!

I can finally pack his suitcase and fill it with diapers and wipes and clothes.  I wouldn't be totally crazy if I did that now because this is happening soon.  I wanted to pack it a year ago... :)

Thank you friends for your prayers over the last *almost* two years.  We started this process that long ago!  And your prayers have meant the world to me.  

Soon enough I'll be able to share photos of his FACE!  (He has the sweetest face!)  We can't yet.  But soon!

P.S.  One more thing... I got LASIK surgery on my eyes a week and half ago.  Pretty much one of the coolest things that has ever happened to me.  I can see!!!  

Monday, August 6, 2012

10 years down...

Ten years ago I was 20 years old.  Ten years ago I put on a wedding dress and laughed with my girlfriends before walking down the aisle toward my 19 year old husband-to-be.  I remember realizing ten minutes before walking down the aisle that I was starving and scarfing down a ham sandwich.  I remember bawling my eyes out while holding onto my dads arm because this was it.  I was marrying this boy that I loved soo much.  I remember seeing his face and seeing him cry and feeling like my heart was exploding with excitement!  Ten years ago I married my soul mate.  Cheesy but absolutely true.  These ten years have flown by.  We've done so much.  We've seen the entire country via a ford van packed with music equipment and stinky boys.  We've learned how to love each other unconditionally.  We've learned that no matter what we're here to stay.  Things changed A LOT when the babies came along.  We've learned how to change diapers together, and how to kiss little knees after a fall.  And the older our children get the more thankful I am that we have one another.  Watching Lane adore his girls is one of the most amazing things I've seen.  And seeing our girls adore their daddy melts my heart on the spot.  

I can't believe ten years have gone by.  I can't believe that I am so lucky to have this man in my life.  I know this man will never stop loving me.  I know our love is right and good and everything that I hoped and prayed for as a little girl.  It's not perfect but it's wonderful.  

Thank you God for the blessing of true love.  Thank you God for bringing this man into my life.  We have so much to look forward to.  We have so many memories to make.  

I can't wait to see lane with his son for the first time in a few short weeks.  So heres to ten wonderful years with the man of my dreams.  Seriously,  I married a good one!  

I love you Lane.  Always will.  

I tried to find some old pictures because we pretty much have NO wedding pictures.  Sad, but we were just kids and didn't know any better.