Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Reason to sing.

The story of my life right now...



When the pieces seem to shatter
To gather off the floor
And all that seems to matter
Is that i don't feel you anymore
No, I don't feel you anymore

CHORUS
I need a reason to sing
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that you're still holding
The whole world in your hands
I need a reason to sing

When I'm overcome by fear
And I hate everything I know
If this waiting lasts forever
I'm afraid I might let go
I'm afraid I might let go

I need a reason to sing
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that you're still holding
The whole world in your hands
And I need a reason to sing

If there be a victory
Will you sing it over me now
Your peace is the melody
Will you sing it over me now
If there be a victory
Will you sing it over me now
Oh Lord, your peace is the melody
Will you sing it over me now

I need a reason to sing
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that you're still holding
The whole world in your hands

And that is a reason to sing

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

7 months down... and will he like us???

It's been almost 7 months since we saw our son for the first time. These seven months have dragged on and on. Hopefully we only have 7 more months (or less!!!) until he'll be home with us. Imaginging that we are only at the half way point is beyond heartbreaking. But things are moving along with the adoptions in Korea and hopefully it'll stay that way.

I'm actually starting to plan more. I'm starting to get his room together. We're talking about our plans for traveling. I know we still have time but talking about all of this is making it so much more real. I'm so excited to be a mother of three.

Every night we pray for baby brother. We pray that he'll be healhty and happy and safe. And of course we pray that he'll come home soon. I know the girls don't completely understand why he can't be with us now. But they know that he is loved and safe and healthy. Tonight Claire asked me all about his foster family. I didn't have many answers but she knows he is loved and that made her happy.

This wait has been longer than expected but honestly it has given us so much time to prepare. I've spent so much time thinking about this boy and praying for him and I feel like he is such a part of me... a part of us. He was put on this earth to be a part of us, and us a part of him. And I'm so grateful.

The one great fear I have in all of this is not "How will I possibly handle three kids?" But "Will he love me?" "Will he feel safe with us?" These questions and thoughts have been taking over lately. I'm so worried that he won't love us or that he'll just be downright scared, which he probably will, since we are taking him away from everything and everyone that is familiar to him. But I pray with all of my heart that even if he doesn't want to have anything to do with us, that he will feel safe with us. And that even in the beginnging if he doesn't like us, that he knows that we love him. I know trust will come more easily when he sees that our girls trust us and rely on us and love us. Just hoping for the best and anticipating the worst. I know God has a plan. Please pray for our son. Start praying now for his transition into our family. I'm so worried about this.

Moms out there that know anything about this, please tell me about your experience.