As some of you know I keep a journal with letters to our baby. It's hard right now because all of my letters say the same things over and over again... but I keep writing them because I'm always thinking about him and I have to let him know. You'd think it would be hard to write letters to a little person that you've never seen or met but it's so easy. He is such a part of us already. He's talked about all day long. He is prayed for and loved and adored. Here's one of my letters...
Written June 1st, 2011
Hello little one. Life has been so busy, but I'm thinking of you all day long. We pray for you every night, for your tiny body and you little beating heart... for every little part of you. We pray that your foster family is loving on you like crazy! We miss you! Can we miss you?? We haven't met you yet. I have never held you or looked into your face but I miss you so much! My life is incomplete. My heart is aching to hold you and kiss your sweet face and I just want to tell you that I love you! Baby boy, come home!
I hope that he looks back on these letters one day and knows how loved he was even before we saw him or met him for the first time. I hope he knows that he was a part of our family from the moment God put him on our hearts.
I seriously love our little baby boy! I've been having a rough time with the wait lately. But I'm feeling peace about everything. I'm not stressed... just a little sad. I just always feels like something is missing. We should be seeing his picture for the first time any day now!!!