Sunday, June 26, 2011

Camping changes things...

We've had a great week.  Lane was off and we went camping at Lake San Antonio with our wonderful friends.  

It was so nice to get away and to sit by a lake and do absolutely nothing for three days.

While I was there I also did a lot of thinking... more on that in a minute...

So, a week or so before our camping trip Lane bought a gnarly trailer.  An authentic army trailer to be exact.  I have to admit, it's pretty sweet.  When we got it, it looked like this...

He did some work on it and painted it black.  He also mounted a huge box for us to store stuff in.  And our rig ended up looking like this, which is awesome.

Pretty legit, huh?

On the way up to the lake we took the top off the jeep and drove.  It was hot out!  

We got to the lake and the girls ran to the water and pretty much stayed there for the next three days.  They LOVED it.  I've never camped at this lake before.  But it was cool.  There were no real bathrooms, just port-a-potties, (GROSS!!!) and no showers.  But I loved it.  We got really dirty.  We didn't shower the entire time and that was kind of fun.  I didn't stress about it at all.  Big step for me!  Woo hoo!

Claire did soo good in the water this trip!  She's always been a little scared of the water.  But she was all about it.  She was swimming around with her little tube on and didn't have any freak outs.  She did awesome.

And Faye was just as crazy as ever.  She was adorable (as usual) and really wild.  

So all in all, it was great.  Camping is great because you can have so much fun with so little.  You just sit back and appreciate your family and the beauty around you.

We had so much fun and we can't wait to go back!  Soon!  

Now, back to the other thing... 
God has really really been laying "patience" on my heart!  Like big time.  There are so many things that I need to give up to him.  There are so many things that I need to let go of.  (Isn't this everyone's story??  I know!)  But I feel like God wants to do something big in me.  I'm excited!  I want to be stirred and moved and changed.  But I can't be until I let go of ME.  I love life too much.  I love things, and money, and I want to be more fit and have prettier hair.  I want to have better skin and cuter clothes.  I want something all. the. time.  But this IS NOT what he wants for me.  He wants me to have what will last.  Peace, hope, joy, love, patience...  He wants me to be humble and to love him with my whole heart.  He wants me to let go of the things of this world and to cling to him.  And I want these things that he wants to give to me... but now he's reminding me that I need to be patient.  That it won't happen overnight.  I won't wake up tomorrow and have these things.  These are things that I need to work for.  Things that I need to seek out and search for.  These things will come to me when I ask for them and truly want them and when I'm willing to give up everything else.  So I'm starting a journey.  A journey to true peace and hope.  I love that in our relationship with God there is always more room to grow.  There are always new things to learn.  I'm excited to see how he changes me this time.  This goes a lot deeper but that's all I want to share for now.  

Goodnight friends!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Goodbye outage. Phew.

It's been a while.  I haven't wanted to blog/ have nothing to blog about/ have been too busy to blog...

But today I'm blogging.  Nothing too interesting...

Just life.

So Lane is finally working a normal schedule again!  Thank goodness!!!  That was an insane month and a half.  It was too much.  I made it through, but it was rough and I'm exhausted.  We had numerous colds, strep throat, nervous breakdowns, horrendous tantrums, nights where I just didn't care that the girls were staying up till 11 pm, and times where I hadn't cleaned the house for a week straight.  And now were ending it with a round of colds.  Yes.  

I'm just so grateful for Lane.  Not really seeing him for six weeks makes me realize how much we need him around.  Not only does he help so much with the girls and around the house, our family is just so much better with him here.  The girls listen better.  

And now summer has begun and it's been interesting.  With no school there is a lot of arguing happening.  Not only between Claire and Faye but between me and Claire.  Ugh.  It's amazing how being apart for 4 hours 3 days a week helps.  We've been together 24/7.

Today, even though the girls are feeling a bit under the weather we went out to Avila Barn and then tried to see Kung Fu Panda 2.  We went with my mom and aunt.  I can't tell you how the movie was because Faye was ready to leave 20 minutes in.  

Here are some pics from Avila Barn.  One of our favorite 

Faye's not happy :(

Poor Foofie... not feelin' good.

And here are some randoms...
Proof that we have a cool dog.  They nap together all the time.

They even nap like this.

And proof that I have a cool husband.  Folding laundry for 2 1/2 hours.  Pretty sweet.

And nothing is new with our adoption!  Still waiting!  But checking my email 50 times a day for word from the agency!