Monday, February 28, 2011

Hope.

In this adoption process (which we've only been in for about a month now) I've learned a lot.  I've already had ups and downs.  Days where I'm so excited and so hopeful and days where I am full of doubt and don't know if we're doing the right thing.  

Today I am hopeful.  Today I know that we are doing the right thing.  Today I am so incredibly excited that our tiny boy is probably about to make his way into the world.

I've had a few days filled with doubt but today the Lord reassured me that it's right.  That this is what he wants for our family and that he will provide.  

Today we found out that our wait time for a referral is 5 months!!!  5 months!!!  That's so soon!  That also means that our son isn't born yet.  He's still in his mama's belly.  In South Korea, they don't allow any babies to be put up for adoption until they are 5 months old.  First they try to find them a family in Korea and if that doesn't work out they allow an agency in Korea to find a family for them.  And that's where we come in!   

All I can do now is pray that he is safe and healthy and that he goes to a wonderful foster family until he's ready to come home to us forever.  I can't believe that our baby boy is out there. Probably not "out there" yet but in a tummy somewhere in South Korea.  Insane.  Aaaaahhhh.  I've been shaking with excitement all day because today it became so much more real to me that this is happening.  It's really happening!

Pray for us.  We need it so much.  We need to keep our eyes on Jesus in all of this.  We need to trust him.  

Thank you friends.


Sunday, February 20, 2011

Just the beginning... a little update...


This adoption is so new to us.  I haven't written a whole lot about it.  But I'll explain a little...



Originally we looked into adopting from Ethiopia.  It seemed like the obvious choice for us.  We have friends who are adopting from there and we've read a lot about it and heard great stories about it and when I pictured my son I always pictured a beautiful little black boy.  But a few weeks into this I was doing a late night run on the treadmill crying and praying for our son.  I had an epiphany and realized, "I don't care where he comes from.  He's going to be our son.  Our baby.  That's all I care about."  I talked to Lane the next morning and told him how I felt.  He told me that he felt relieved.  He didn't know why but he just did.  So we started researching some more and we felt totally drawn to South Korea.  It just felt right and good and now here we are...

We are about 3 weeks into our paperwork and everything is moving quickly.

We had our first home visit on Friday.  

When our social worker walked through our front door, tiny Faye said, "Wew's my baby bwudduh?" (Translation: Where's my baby brother.)  I promise we did not tell her to say that.  It was super cute.  

But our meeting went great.  I totally freaked myself out about it and it ended up being super chill.  Not a big deal at all.  Our social worker was awesome.  We sat on the couch and talked about life and kids and our hobbies... everything.  And I think it went great.  I guess it really wasn't necessary for me to clean out and organize every single drawer and cabinet in our house... but I did and I'm glad I did.  I feel like our house is clean from the inside out.  That's a good feeling.

So another step reached in the whole process.  I feel like everything is happening really fast.  The real waiting will begin in a few months after all of our paper work is sent to Korea and we are put on a waiting list for our baby boy.  YAY!!!!!!!!!!






Saturday, February 12, 2011

Can't sleep...

Here we go again.  I'm up.  2:37 am.  Can't sleep.  

I just went outside because the night is so clear.  We live out in the middle of nowhere so there are billions of stars.  And if you keep looking and your eyes get adjusted you'll see more and more and more.  It's crazy.  

While I was out there I prayed... and realized... I'm talking to the God of the universe.  Insane.  He's huge. He's so much bigger than I will ever know.  I mean the stars!  He made those.  And it's nights like these that I believe he made them to remind us of how big he really is.  

Also while I was out there I listened to a song I'm loving right now...  It's gotten me through some rough nights.  My favorite part says...

"I want to take your word and shine it all around.
First help me just to live it Lord.
And when I'm doing well, help me to never seek a crown,
for my reward is giving glory to you."

I only hope I can live my life this way.

So...

A lot is going on in my life right now.  I'm BUSY.  Lane's been working a ton and I've been going non stop this entire week.  Maybe this is just me finally getting out of my head after 4 days of being alone with the girls and Lane not getting home till after 10:00.  This week has been chaos.  And on top of that, I'm trying to start the paperwork for the adoption.  The paperwork is a little intimidating to say the least.  It's kinda crazy.

But in the midst of all of this, I've managed to keep my patience, which is great.  I've managed to find time to sit down and play with the girls.  Read, color, paint, playdoh, barbies, babies, Justin Bieber dance parties... all of the good stuff.

So here I am.  Getting this all out.  Life is crazy but God is good.


Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Home visits and crocheted animals. Yes please.


 Talked to our social worker today!  

We have our first home visit on the 18th!  Woo hoo!!!

Things are moving and I'm liking it... a lot.  

I've been praying like crazy.  For our baby and for this process.  I know I need to keep Jesus first in all of this.  I'm so thankful to be a part of it.  

Please pray for us.

Also, it's been fun... I've been looking at boy "stuff".  Clothes, toys... you know.  I know nothing about this stuff but it's fun.  I was checking out some stuff on Etsy.  Trying to get ideas for a cute boys room.  Found the cutest crocheted animals.  I used to crochet.  So I decided to try it out.  I had to google, "How to read a crochet pattern".  It still didn't make sense but I kind of figured it out and ended up with this little guy...





This little octopus found a good home.  He went to a friend that I love.

Now both of the girls are insisting on a little octopus.  Claire is asking me to have it done before she goes to bed so she can sleep with it.  Ya right.  This thing took me like 3 hours.  

But I see a lot of cute crocheted animals in our future!