Wednesday, December 21, 2011

ALMOST the best Christmas present ever.

Time is flying by.  I can't believe Christmas is here and it's been almost 4 1/2 months since we saw our little mans face for the first time.  

Lane got home from work yesterday and said, "Well, what do you want for Christmas... because what I wanted to get you fell through."  

He didn't want to tell me.  I kept asking.

He had contacted our agency and asked if there was any way to get me out there to meet our little one.  He was trying to fly me out to South Korea at the end of January so I could be with our son for a few hours.  (JUST a few hours.  Isn't that crazy?)  The ladies at the agency got back to him yesterday and told him there was no way we could make it work.  They said they are so busy over in Korea with the new year and that it would be tough to get everything together.  A meeting place, translators, etc.

I'm so bummed.  But I understand.  

So baby boy, we're still here... and you're still there.  I miss you more every day.  I know you are healthy and happy.  I know you are loved.  But every day when I look at your sweet face my heart sinks because you are part of me and we aren't together.  

Lord, please let him come home sooner than later.  

Friday, December 16, 2011

Resolutions for 2012.

It's that time again...

I feel like I JUST did this.  

Every year I write out my resolutions... and surprisingly by the end of the year I accomplish most of them.  365 days is plenty of time to accomplish something.

So here they are... my resolutions for 2012.

1. Bring our baby home!!!  (Hoping and praying with all of my heart that it'll be in 2012.)
2.  Run at least two half marathons.
3.  Become a CPT by February.  (I haven't talked about this at all.  I've been working on this for awhile.)
4. Do at least one charity event with Running Grrrl.
5. Eat clean.  (As clean as possible and be aware of what I'm putting into my body...)
6. Go to bed earlier so I can do AM workouts before the girls get up.
7. Keep my house cleaner & keep my laundry done.  (We'll see about this one.)
8. Be better with money... seriously!
9.  Pay off credit cards.  This is gonna happen!  Exciting!
10.  Less TV, less computer time, more reading!

I think these are pretty reasonable.  Can't wait to see what I accomplish and when.  I'm so excited for a new year!  Also this year, I turn 30!!!!!!!!  Crazy.  I'm actually really excited about this.  I had a talk with my sister in law last night.  We talked about how women in their thirties are actually cool.  You can still be stylish and cute and fun but you've got more shiz figured out than you did in your twenties.  Sounds good to me!  

Here's to 2012!

Monday, December 5, 2011

Prayers please...

In the past few weeks we've gotten a few updates on our little man.  He's doing soo great.  He's healthy.  He's growing.  He's changing.  He's looking absolutely adorable.  He's looking more like a little boy than a baby and I just love him so much.  

We got an email from our agency saying that we are done with the paperwork on our side and now we WAIT.  Forever.  

I wrote to our agency asking for an estimate on when they think we might be able to bring him home.  And I got some news that broke my heart.  Because of when we accepted our referral we'll probably be the last or one of the last families to bring our baby home in 2012.  Or we'll have to wait until 2013.  We were thinking he'd be home summer of 2012.  But now it's looking like early 2013.  

I'm so sad.

He's my son.  Of course I want him home sooner than later.  But also I just feel like I'm missing out on so much in those few months.  We thought we'd be bringing him home at 18 months old.  Now he might be over two years old and that makes such a huge difference.  In those months babies turn into kids.  They become so much more independent.  

So please pray with me friends.  Pray that 2012 will be our year!!!  I know God has plans for us.  My heart is hurting for our precious boy and I want him home!  Anything is possible with prayer.  

I knew this would be hard but I didn't expect to love this little someone so much.  I didn't know I'd love him like he was my own before I even held him in my arms.  He is part of of me and I adore him.  

Pray him home!!!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

30 days of (somewhat) clean eating...

Alright people.  Yesterday was 30 days of "eating clean" for me.  I started on October 28th.  (Right before Halloween.  That was TORCHER!)

I'll be honest.  I was not perfect.  But I ate so much better than I normally would have and I was able to make better choices because I was making a conscious effort to put good things into my body.

So here's how it went...

(I'm going to be honest here.)

Breakfast was usually eggs with a little goat cheese and dill.  Some days I switched it up and had oatmeal.  Most days I also had a banana and my yummy Super Green Drink from Trader Joe's.

Snacks were usually veggies and hummus, nuts, or brown rice cakes with peanut butter.  I became obsessed with Trader Joe's Wasabi Wow mix.  I think I've eaten like 5 bags of it this month.  It has almonds, peanuts, wasabi peas & cranberries.  It's sweet, spicy and a little salty all at once.  Delicious.

Lunch is always hard for me.  But I usually had a sandwhich.  Whole wheat with turkey or lean ham and veggies.

For dinners we tried a few new things.  One of my faves (which I think I mentioned before...) was the coconut chicken curry with brown rice and steamed broccoli.  We also did our usual tacos, stir fry, bbq...

 I made sure that I was drinking a lot of water all day.  And I always finished my day with hot caffeine free tea while I watched TV.  I made a point to not snack at night.

And some days (NOT all days!!!) I indulged in my favorite thing on the planet.  Dark chocolate.  And I have to get this off my chest... I had some Diet Coke.  I know that soda is a no-no.  I know I should stay away from it but on days when I was craving something sweet Diet Coke did the trick.  Everything in moderation, right?  I don't know...  Aaahhh I'm glad I got that out there in the open.

And I also found a loop hole for sugar cravings.  I mentioned before  These recipes are amazing.  They are all vegan.  A few times I made her fudge babies.  All they are are ground up dates and cashews.  You mix a little unsweetened cocoa powder in there and they taste and feel like your eating balls of chocolate cookie dough.  Pretty amazing.  We also tried the vegan chocolate chip cookies.  They have 2 tablespoon of sugar in the entire batch of cookies! Crazy, right?  They are delicious.

Annnnd my favorite eating out meal was Chipotle.  Hands down.  I order the same thing every time.  A veggie bowl with brown rice (Yep!  They have brown rice now!) black beans, veggies, roasted corn salsa, medium salsa and a little cheese, and lettuce.  It's sooo yummy! Eating out can be tough if you're extremely strict with your eat clean plan.  But it's not impossible.

Also Thanksgiving dinner wasn't as tough as I though it would be.  I was in charge of veggies.  I made  a huge amount of roasted butternut squash, sweet potatoes, bell peppers and onions tossed in olive oil, balsamic vinegar and fresh rosemary.  I loaded up my plate with veggies and kind of filled up on them before I got to my meat and stuffing.  And I'll be honest... I ate pumpkin pie!  And I didn't feel guilty for one second!  It was soo good!

 So all in all I think these last 30 days went great!  I feel good about what I put into my body.  No Doritos, no candy (besides a little dark chocolate).  I didn't even have a bit of cake!  And I had numerous opportunities to get in on some cake.

I realize that eating what's good makes me feel good.  I have more energy and I sleep better.  

So I plan to keep going with this.  Saying no to processed foods and foods loaded with sugar is what I have to do.  And now it's not because it's a game or a challenge, it's because I know that's what will feel best for me in the long run. 

Now on with life!  Eating good, running, strength training, getting ready for baby boy!!!  Life is busy! 

I hope some of you did this with me!  How did it go?   

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Eating Clean... Pretty much.

A little update.  

I'm doing pretty good.  

I haven't had candy or sweets. (Besides some dark chocolate... just a little... Oh and these amazing garbanzo bean blondies I made last night.  YUM.)

I've had some chips and salsa, which I'm pretty sure isn't part of this eating plan.  Ooops.

The first weekend after I started this we went out of town and that was extremely difficult.  I wasn't prepared and I was pretty much starving.  We took a quick trip to Trader Joes.  I stocked up on nuts, a little dried fruit, and some fresh fruit.  (We didn't have fridge in our hotel room so I got what I could.)  We ate out for every meal which was hard.  But you can always find something.  I haven't been perfect but this is the best I've ever done.  

Things I'm learning:

-Eating clean takes work.
-Preparing meals and snacks ahead of time is crucial to not failing.
-I feel sooo good!  No sugar crashes!  What was I thinking before?
-There are ways to enjoy desserts. and not feel like crap.  Check out

So all in all it's going good.  I've been around a lot of yummy treats and I haven't given in.  I'm 13 days in.  Yay!

My daily eating plan is still consisting of:

Breakfast: Eggs (Sometimes I throw some meat in there and maybe a few tablespoons of crumbled goat cheese.  Oh and dill... I never eat eggs without dill.)
Snacks: Fruit, nuts, brown rice cakes with nut butter, roasted seaweed snack.  (Not all of this at once...)
Lunch: A big salad with lean turkey or lean ham and all sorts of veggies.  I've been making my dressing at home too.
Dinner: Usually chicken?  Brown rice, veggies.  (I made an insanely good coconut curry chicken last week!)

Desserts... Check out the website above.  I've only tried the garbanzo bean blondies and the chocolate chip cookie dough babies.  Both are amazing.  Both are full of things that are good for you!  

So eating clean is fun!  There is so much we CAN eat.  And there is so much out there that we shouldn't eat so this works out well!  

Anyone else doing this?  How's it going?

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Eating Clean - Day One

Day one is done and I feel good!  

*And FYI I will not be posting daily about this.  I'll just do a post every week or so to let you know that I'm not failing horribly and also it'll help keep me accountable.

Before I go on I want to clarify... A lot of people have different ideas about what "eating clean" is.  None of these ideas are right or wrong.  My idea of eating clean is no processed food.  However I will eat turkey deli meat.  I love Columbus turkey.  It's minimally processed and they have one with low sodium.  I'll be sticking to veggies (raw or steamed), fresh fruits, lean meats/proteins, minimal salt intake, and minimal dairy.

Here's how today went:

Breakfast - Cottage cheese and a banana.

Snack - Sliced turkey.

Lunch - A huge pile of carrots w/ hummus and two scrambled eggs topped with pepper and dill.

Snack - Handful of strawberries and TJ's Green Drink Mix in water.

Dinner - A plate of steamed broccoli and homemade turkey/veggie/black bean chili.

Snack - Roasted seaweed snack (my favorite) while I watch The Biggest Loser!    

I drank a TON of water today.

And before bed I'll have ginger/chamomile tea.  Yum.

So today was a breeze.  This is how I normally eat but a lot of the time there is some candy or chips thrown into the mix.  But not today!  One day down!  29 more to go!

Happy Clean Eating!

Monday, October 31, 2011

Eating Clean in November!

Tomorrow is November 1st.  I'm excited to start something new.  

Clean eating.

I want to try and eat super clean for 30 days.  Maybe one cheat a week.  But by cheat I mean some dark chocolate.  No M&M's.  No Doritos.  Just the good stuff.  And in reality I should be committing to eating clean for longer than 30 days but I can't.  I don't want to let myself down.  Lately I have a hard time committing to anything so I need to take this one month at a time, or even one day at a time...

I've been doing some new things.  I started seeing a new Dr. to try and get my hormones and my anxiety under control.  The results have been wonderful!  I'm taking some new herbs and a new progesterone cream and I'm pretty excited about it.  I think the last thing left to do is to seriously change what I'm putting into my body.  I eat pretty good, lot's of veggies, lot's of lean protein... but still this last weekend I ate In N Out.  I ate a veggie burger with tons of amazing melty cheese and french fries, then finished it off with half of a milk shake.  And I didn't feel great after so it's just not worth it!  I've also been obsessed with Tootsie Rolls this last week!  It's horrible.

I've been doing A LOT of research on clean eating.  

They (Jamie Eason, Tosca Reno, Sarah Fragoso from Everyday Paleo) all say changing your body is 80% nutrition, 10% genetics and 10% exercise.  I believe it.  

And I want to feel good.  Really good.  When we put good things into our body, we feel better, we sleep better, we have more energy, our mood is better.  It's all around the best thing we can do for our bodies.  And we should want to feel good, right??

So this means preparing meals and snacks ahead of time and always having something on me that is good for me.  

If anyone wants to do this with me, please do!  It'll be a fun challenge with great benefits!  30 days of feelin' good!

And I'm hoping that I'll feel soo good that I won't ever want to dabble in the junky stuff again.  I know it gets to a point where that stuff just doesn't sound appetizing at all.  And there are sooo many other options out there!  Even when we're craving sweets there are things we can eat other than a Snickers bar (my personal favorite).  I found  It's all about healthy desserts.  And really, they look and sound amazing.  And they are filled with things that are good for you like chick peas and beets and oats and flax seed.  You have to check her out.

So here we go.  

Time to eat clean.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Foofie is three.

Faye turned three on Friday.  I'm so sad.  She is my tiny little peanut baby.  It's so crazy how fast these kids grow and change.  The morning of Faye's birthday I held her tight and begged her to stay two!  She said she would.  But I think she'll keep getting older :(

Faye is soo incredibly special.  She is absolutely hilarious and soo freakin' cute.  She is sweet and sensitive and loves to do her own thing.  She loves her sissy, her mama and her daddy.  She loves her baby brother.  And she adores Bridgette.  

She is just a crazy little lady that makes us laugh hysterically every day.  

We love our Faye Faye.  
Our Foof Mouse.  
Our Foo Foo.  
Our Miso Soup.  
Our Faye-be.  
Our Faysian Invasion. 

She is so wonderful!  

Happy Birthday to our sweet girl!

Faye and her buddy Tayden:)  They are so cute!!!

Thursday, October 20, 2011


I haven't blogged for almost a month.  We've been busy!

October 15th was a good day.  Good enough to blog about.  In the afternoon I went to a friends house to meet her sweet baby Quinne for the first time.  This little baby girl is precious.  Newborns are the sweetest. I stayed for a few hours and got an insanely good arm workout while holding her.  For real.  I was super sore the next day.  New moms are hard core.  I'm not joking... I could barely lift my arms the next day... Ha.  So while I was there I got a text from Lane...

I knew this was coming.  Our agency told us earlier in the week that they'd be sending us a video of our baby boy.  I kind of tried to forget about it because I didn't want to get my hopes up.  But it came.  I drove home shaking with excitement.  It was finally time to see our little guy in action.  To see his sweet face and hear his sweet voice.  I ran into the house.  Lane had the video ready but hadn't watched it yet which I was super excited about.  The second that video started my heart skipped a beat.  Our baby.  I know I've said this already but GEEEEZ!!!  HE. IS. PERFECT.  I fell in love with him even more within seconds of watching that video.  A few minutes in I looked over at Claire.  Her eyes were full of tears and she kept saying "He's sooo cute.  He's the cutest baby in the world."  And then she cried and said, "I want baby brother to come home!"  My heart broke into a million pieces right there.  

The video is seven minutes long.  Seven minutes that I could watch over and over and over again.  I've watched it a lot.  And I'll keep watching it.  Every time I watch it I laugh because he is so sweet and I tear up because I love him and my heart breaks because I miss him sooo much.  I want him home so badly.  Our family is not complete.  I'm hoping and praying that this won't take another year!  But that is just what I want and maybe not what God has in mind.  Who knows.  I just need to be patient.  I need to be content in knowing that this is just the beginning and that this little guy is part of family forever and that he is meant to be with us and HE WILL get here.

I wish so badly that I could share pictures because I'm so proud to call him my son.  But I can't.  If I see you in person I'll gladly show you his sweet face!  

So that's the latest on our sweet boy.  

And another blog is coming soon.  Tomorrow is Faye's 3rd birthday!  She gets a post all to herself!

Friday, September 30, 2011

Fall Fashion Week - Day Seven :(

So sad that today is the last day!  This week has been sooo much fun! 

Today I'm going super casual.  

Me and my ladies are running errands all day... Target, Costco, Trader Joe's and a million other places.  

T-shirt: Make Pie Not War (A local girl who makes jewelry.)
Pants: Selena Gomez... again.  These things are comfy!
Shoes: Blowfish
Earrings: Forever 21

(Crazy face.)

Ladies this week has been amazing!  I got so many fun ideas from everyone.  I can't wait for Spring Fashion Week!!!  (Emery... hint hint!)  

Can't wait to see what you girls have on today.  

Have a great Friday!

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Fall Fashion Week - Day Six

It's finally feeling a little like fall today so I'm wearing pants!  It's nice out though.  Overcast but not cold.  Here's today's little number...

Lacy get up:  Borrowed from my sis in law.  She works at this amazing little boutique called Stella Casa.
Jeans: Forever 21
Head band: Forever 21
Shoes: No idea.  I've had them for 10 years.

This post is short but I'm busy today!  Can't wait to check out all of you ladies later!  Have a great day:)

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Fall Fashion Week - Day Five

I'm out of clothes to wear.  For real.  I have nothing exciting left in my closet.  So I texted my sister in law and she came to the rescue with an arm full of dresses, tops & rompers... Thanks Brittany!

I chose the romper.  Because I'm tellin' you... It's hot!  It was 82 degrees today!  I'm loving this weather.  And I'm loving that I get to wear summer clothes.

So here it is...

Romper: Forever 21
Shoes: CL by Laundry
Faye's dress: Target
Claire's halloween costume: My closet

I love that they are pounding their lemonade in every picture.

And after Lane took my pictures outside I remembered to put these earrings on.  Super cute teal feather earrings.  These too belong to my sis in law.  And this picture is funny.  I look like a scared alien and Claire's face is just awesome.  

I feel so good about getting this blog done the night before!  Yes!  

Can't wait to see everyone else tomorrow!  Good night friends:)

Monday, September 26, 2011

Fall Fashion Week - Day Four

I can't believe I'm posting this so early. It's so not like me! But here you go!  And once again, (I feel I need to clarify) it is STILL hot up in here... so I'm not dressed for fall.

And I hate to do the mirror pictures... but sometimes when all you have is an iPhone, a 2 year old, and a 4 year old, the mirror just makes sense.

I'm wearing...
Tank top: Urban Outfitters
Skirt: Forever 21
Shoes: Ross (I don't know what brand and I don't feel like getting up to check...)
And Faye isn't wearing the same dress two days in a row(not that it would be surprising if she did) ... I just changed and took some pictures of outfit #2 for the day.  But Faye's face is awfully funny in this picture, don't you think?  Cutie patootie!

And please check out the beautiful ladies here!!!  This really is so much fun!  And you can still join in if you want to!  And you totally should!

Fall Fashion Week - Day Three

Day three already!  

Once again I'm dressed for summer.  It's hot here!  We're finally getting our "summer" weather and I'm loving it.  We've been outside all morning.  The girls have been riding their bikes through the sprinklers and we're about to head out to Jamba Juice.  

I'm super comfy today.  

Dress: Target
Faye's dress:  Also Target

Once again my photographer is my 4 year old little lovely.  She's pretty good!

And I'm really loving this fall fashion week.  I think I've said that every day so far.  But it's so fun.  And I'm getting such great fun ideas from all of you.  And after seeing you guys I'm desperately wanting to do some thrift store shopping.  I don't do that enough and I really should because you guys look awesome.

Check out the lovely ladies at!!!

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Fall Fashion Week - Day Two

Today I had a special photographer.  She's 4.  Her name is Claire and she's awesome.  So my pictures are extra artsy today :)

And my outfit... well, it's like 75 degrees today.  Not very fall-ish.  So I'm wearing something summery.  

Also, I've worn this shirt thing every time I've done a fashion week with Emery.  I still love it.

Shirt: Hand me down from a dear friend.  It's from Urban Outfitters.
Shorts: Target  I think.
Sandals: Marshalls
Cute tiny girl: Made by ME.

I'm loving seeing everyone else's outfits.  I think tomorrow I'll borrow something cute from my my sis in law.  I've got nothing exciting to share with all of you.  

Go check out everyone else at!

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Fall Fashion Week - Day One!

Yay! I'm so excited to do this!!! Thank you Emery!!!

I love doing this because it gives me a reason to actually get dressed and maybe even put a little makeup. I mean right now I'm writing this and I'm in sweats. Haha!

But here is last nights outfit. I went out to dinner with some of my lady friends. We had a lot of fun!

Super duper casual... And super duper cheap!!!
Shirt: Kmart. $3.00 by Selena Gomez
Pants: Kmart. $5.00 ALSO Selena Gomez
Shoes: TOMS (my faves)

Close up of my pants. They look white in the picture up there.

Earrings handmade by my lovely friend Taryn. She makes beautiful stuff! Find her on Facebook! She's called Ella Dolce.

I'm so excited to see everyone else's outfits!!! My favorite thing to do is sit with a cup of tea after the girls go to bed and look at every single one!

Check out the other ladies at Emery's blog!

Monday, September 19, 2011

Today was a rough one...

Today was rough.  Some days Claire and I just don't click... at all.  Today was one of those days.  We fight like sisters and that's hard.  I don't really know, because I don't have a sister but I imagine that this might be what it feels like.  It's wild because she goes from this...

To this...

She's four.  Why do I feel so defeated???  She's FOUR!

And then I have this other crazy little lady.  

Who goes from this...

To this...

To this!!!

Faye and I don't fight as much but she is still a handful.  She's my crazy one but she's also waaay more sensitive so she actually listens a little bit because she doesn't like to be in trouble.  

Oh these girls.  Holy Moly!  I'm tired!!!

And it's been awhile so here are some pictures just for fun...

Yesterday was my beautiful mothers birthday so our family went to the Santa Barbara Zoo then out to lunch!  We had a great time!  The weather was perfect!

Faye is super into this lately.  She loves thumbs up, peace signs...

And proof that my hair is finally growing and that I'm figuring out how to style it!  

And last but certainly not least.  The best part of my day today.  Putting this stuff together.  This is a picture of the things we are sending to our baby boy and his foster mom at the end of September.  Our agency is going over to Korea so they're going to bring our stuff over and hopefully get new pictures and videos of our little man!!!  I CANNOT EVEN WAIT!!!

So today was just one of those days.  I'm worn out.  And after I finish this blog I'm going to clean my house for an hour then go to bed.  Nothing is ever done around here.  But really quick I'll say that even though today felt horrible I had peace.  I ran and prayed.  I'm realizing that when I have these days I can't pray for God to take them from me.  I can only pray that he'll help me have the strength to change my attitude and to see the good in my life.  And when I willingly accept his peace and joy, only then will my attitude change.  He won't force anything on me... even his peace.  I'm almost thirty and just now figuring this out.  Wow.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

I'm in LOVE.

Thursday morning started just like any other day.  I had a stressful morning getting the girls out of the house and to preschool.  I dropped Claire off, then Faye.  I got back on the freeway and I literally took a deep breath, listened to music and was super excited to have 3 1/2 hours to myself.  

At 9:25 am I got a call from a blocked number.  I normally would never answer but I did.  It was Regina from our agency.  She asked me if I had a minute to talk.  I said yes but didn't think anything of it since we'd been going over some paperwork stuff earlier in the week.  And then she said, "We have a little guy here for you.  Can I email you his picture and medical reports?"  I immediately started bawling.  I told her YES!!!  I pulled over because I couldn't see through my tears.  My heart felt like it was going to explode.  I was soo extremely overwhelmed with joy but I was also nervous.  Honestly I felt exactly the same way I did the morning I found out I was pregnant with both girls.  I was hopeful and surprised even though I totally knew it was coming.  Honestly though, I wasn't expecting to hear anything about our baby until the end of September.  

I called Lane as soon as I got off the phone with Regina.  He was pretty shocked and told me that I had to wait for him to open the email.  He got off early and we met at home.  I set up the video camera so I could record our faces while we saw his little face for the first time.  I hope he'll love that someday:)  

And man oh man.  We opened that email and I couldn't believe my eyes.  


Our baby.  

Our son. 

The baby boy that we have been hoping and praying for was right before our eyes.  Finally.  I knew instantly that he was meant for us.  My heart is aching for him at this very moment.  I want him here so bad.  But I do know that the Lord has perfect timing.  I feel so blessed to have come this far in the process.  I feel so blessed to know the face of this little person that was meant for our family.  We are so very lucky to have been chosen for him.  Thank you God for choosing us.  We are so grateful!

Sadly I can't post a picture.  I don't know what the policies are on that.  I know they're different for every country or agency.  As soon as I can I will!  

But thank you friends and family for all of your prayers for our little man.  He's perfect and he's perfect for us.  Please continue to pray that things will move along and that his journey home will be smooth.  Right now we are looking at bringing him home in about 11 months.  That puts us at August of 2012.  So hopefully things will stay on track!  Hoping and praying!  Thanks again friends for all of your love and support.  We feel it and we're so thankful!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Getting there...

Life has been interesting...

I've been trying realllly hard to get my priorities straight, to exercise more, to get more sleep, to eat better, to pray more, to take all of my supplements and vitamins and to be a good mom, daughter, sister, wife and friend at the same time.  It's hard to do all of this.  The easiest way for me is to write everything down, at least until I get into a crazy consistent routine.  I haven't found that place yet where I just automatically do these things. It's going to take time.  Lot's of time.

Lane and I just sat down and wrote down a workout plan for me.  Along with training for the Vegas half marathon in December I'm doing a TON of strength training.  I can feel my body changing and it's fun.  It's cool to feel stronger.  I just started this routine so I haven't been running... at all.  Right now I'm just getting stronger then I'll start running more and more as the half marathon gets closer.  The goal is to run this thing and feel good, to have no knee pain and to finish feeling strong and like I could keep going.  

Also, I'm on a ton of supplements/vitamins.  From calcium to aloe shots to progesterone cream... It's sooo hard for me to remember to take everything.  Why do I have such hard time with this???  But I know I feel better when I take them so I need to stick with it. 

Good sleep is a work in progress.  I mean all I have to do is go to bed earlier, but I have a hard time with that considering that I LOVE my evening alone time.  I love watching TV and folding laundry and I love to clean at night.  I get so much done.  I just need to let that go though and sleep more!

I'm almost 30 years old and I'm finally learning that in order for me to be a better mom, daughter, sister, wife and friend I have to be healthy and strong.  When I am healthy and strong and eating right I am happy.  And when I am happy I'm a better person all around.  So with all that said, I have to take care of me first.  This sounds selfish I know.  But it's totally true and right.

I want to be good to them...

And him...

They're worth it.

Friday, August 12, 2011


As some of you know Faye loves to cut her hair.  She also loves to have other people cut her hair, particularly other 3 year olds.  We went camping a few weeks ago at Lake San Antonio and Faye told her precious little friend Danica, "Find some scissors and cut my hair."  And you know me!  Of course there were scissors in my purse!  Right there in the tent where they were playing.  Even after the experience we'd had a few weeks prior when Faye cut her own hair a few times because we literally have 6 pairs of scissors just laying around the house.  I know what you're going to tell me...  PUT THOSE SCISSORS UP!  And the funny thing is after all of this, I still haven't.  Ooops.  Anyway, so her little friend did a little snippy snip.   She actually cut it pretty even.  She cut both sides, right above the ear.  It's hard to get the full effect when it's not in person... but it wasn't pretty!

Here it is...

My amazing friend Amy cut it and it looks ADORABLE.  She did such a good job! Seriously I look at it and I want to chop my hair off!  It's sooo cute!

And the pixie cut is back in style, right??

And just for fun here's my little beauties sunbathing in the yard.  I love summer.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Picture update...

I never ever post pictures on my blog anymore... I thought it was time.  

We've been sooo busy this summer.  We've been all over the place.  Camping, Sea World, camping, concerts, and more camping... I'm so glad we just get to be home now.  School starts soon and we're just relaxing till then!  Aaaaahhh.  Feels good.  

Here's our summer in pictures...

Most mornings we hang out late in bed.

We LOVE Lake San Antonio!!!  It's hot and we swim all day.  

Trouble maker.  Bridgette.  We took her to the lake last week.  She went into the water and swam out.  I had to dive in and save her life.  No joke.  She was way under.  She lived!!!

Shaver Lake Bakery.  We had Chunky Bread for breakfast and it was insanely good.

Faye being cute.  As usual.

Don't they look old in this???  So funny.

Selena Gomez concert with Suzanne!!!  We had soo much fun!

And lastly some pictures of Lane's new girlfriend.  It's a jeep and he loves it.  He actually spent the morning and afternoon of our 9th wedding anniversary with it.  Yay!  But really it's pretty cool and I guess he did some crazy trails with it or something...  

So that's our life in a few pictures. 

Life is good.  We're happy and having fun and STILL waiting to hear something... ANYTHING!!! from the adoption agency.  We're still at #2 and we have been for a few weeks.  C'mon baby boy!