Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Trust...

Today while driving I got a picture...

Me standing before Jesus and him saying, "I'm glad you trusted in me."

You always hear people say, "If you are worrying, you aren't trusting Jesus."

I know it's true, but for some reason it doesn't stop me from worrying, ALL THE TIME.

When it's my time, I want Jesus to be proud of the life I lived. To be proud that I was able to put all of my worries aside and put my trust completely in him. Why is this so hard for me?

I've been reading the bible a lot... which is something I haven't really done since I was a teenager. It's teaching me a lot. The disciples had Jesus with them in the flesh and even they had a hard time trusting. They were watching him heal people, bring people back from the dead, feed five thousand people from a few loaves of bread, etc. And still they had times where they doubted.

I feel like for me this is the one thing that I have refused to give to him. And it's time. I have to. This is that last thing that I'm holding on to. I know that the enemy knows that worrying for me is an idol. And he's telling me all the time that I should keep being afraid of the things I fear. But I'm not going to do it anymore. Life is too short to worry. I know living a worry free life is not possible, but I want to be in place where I can turn my worries into prayers. Where I can make a decision to trust the Lord as soon as my worries begin.

What do you do when you feel worried? How do you deal with it? Share with me. I'd love to hear.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Run for your life.



I have a new love.

Running.

This last week I logged over 16 miles. Pretty intense for me. I started running about 6 months ago and then I tried doing a long run (for me) in Yosemite... about 5 miles... my knee gave out and I couldn't run for months. I jacked up my IT band, and it was sooo painful! These past few weeks I've been working on new stretches and exercises to get my knee ready to run again. I started slow... 2 miles... and in 2 weeks I've worked my way up to 4 miles a day... and I'm loving it.

Running to me is amazing. It's the only time that I don't really think about anything. I just run... and breathe. I love the sound of my feet hitting the ground. Sometimes I pray when I run but most of the time my mind is just blank which is something I need. It really does clear my mind. I didn't know that clearing your mind was really possible... but it is and I've found a way to do it. Also, I feel soo much better! I feel awake and alive. I'm in a better mood, I have more patience. Running is good for a lot of things. It's making my life better. Too bad it took me so long to figure out that running is such a good thing for me.

And having a husband who is insanely OBSESSED with running is a big help. He pushes me and gives me pointers. We've really enjoyed running together with the girls. We don't talk or anything but it's such a nice way to spend time together.

I have a few goals... I want to do a half marathon... soon. And also, I want to be a pacer for Lane... someday. He's got some big runs coming up. Next month he has a 50 mile race and in May he has a 62 mile race. I'd love to get to the point where I can run the last 20 miles with him. Big goals, but totally doable.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Hair 2010.

So, I REALLY want to try and grow out my hair. I say this all the time and I always cut it because Lane claims that he loves when my hair is short. But lately I'm seeing all these girls with long, wavy, kind of big hair and I LOVE it. I want long hair!!! So, I'm gonna attempt it. I'm writing this blog because maybe it will help me keep my promise to myself to not cut it. I'll of course keep my bangs short-ish but I don't wanna touch my hair unless it needs a trimmin'... We'll see how this goes.

This is my hair now... I've had it like this forever...



I looked through our millions of pictures and found these. This is the longest my hair has been in years. And it was growing like crazy because I was pregnant...




Good luck to me!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

The Holy Bible.

I recently became a part of this...

And it's changing my world. I've always been one of those people who tries to read the bible. I try and never get much out of it. And I usually do it right before bed while I'm in bed. My eyes are heavy and I'm totally not really reading... I'll fall asleep for a second then wake up and keep reading.

But I started this. I've been reading in the morning while the girls eat breakfast and let me tell ya... I'm getting loads out of it. The Old Testament is totally blowing my mind. I'm super into and I hope I can stick it out for the entire year. I'm actually excited to do this in the morning. I'm loving it.

Just thought I'd share. Maybe some of you want to do it to...

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Princess Party...

Claire had a wonderful little party. We tried to keep it pretty small. I promised Lane I wouldn't go over the top. But I had fun decorating. And a princess theme was so easy! You can find literally anything. I even found this thing online... It came with a ballroom scene that covered an entire wall and a bunch of life size princesses. Claire loved it and spun around in her Cinderella dress and told me that she was so happy to have her own ballroom.

And we couldn't have asked for better weather. It was probably about 75 degrees. All of the kids LOVED the new swing set. Claire got it for her birthday. So, most of the day was spent outside. The kids ran around. The mommies hung out. The dads sat on the tail gate of Lanes truck and drank beer. It was perfect. Another thing that made the day perfect was a champagne cake from Madonna Inn. SOOO GOOD.

Claire had a wonderful day. She was sooo worn out by bed time... it might have also had something to do with the fact that she only ate cake and candy all day. Horrible, I know.

I think we're gonna go smaller next year. Maybe just family? Those parties take a lot out of me. Fun, but I always fall into bed after and think, "I'm never doing that again." Haha. But I'm sure if Claire really wants one next year I will do it.

Thanks friends and family for being a part of Claire's 3rd Birthday! We love you.







Saturday, January 2, 2010

Happy Birthday Claire Adelle.



My sweet, loving, hilarious, incredibly smart, wild, and crazy little Claire is three.

Time has flown by. I can't believe that it's been three years since we welcomed her into the world. My pregnancy with Claire seemed to last forever and ever. I wanted to meet her so badly and that's all I ever thought about. Looking back on my journal while I was pregnant with her is pretty boring. All I ever talked about was how I wanted to meet her and hold her and kiss her.

This little one has changed my world. She's teaching me everyday how to love people. She can make a new friend in an instant. Anyone that smiles at her is her friend. She loves to chat with anyone and everyone. Her heart is so big. I think sometimes she just loves Faye so much that she gets wild and excited and someone ends up getting hurt... not on purpose of course. They just end up in a big tangle on the floor because Claire can't stop hugging Faye. She drowns us in kisses... ALL. THE. TIME. At night I always read Claire a pile of books and she hugs me and kisses me all over my face the entire time I'm reading. It's something I'm cherishing because I know it won't last forever. She's just so lovey and I love that about her. She has such a sweet heart and we are so so blessed to have her in our lives.

And I thought I should add this little story. The other night I was up... couldn't sleep... Claire crawled into bed with us. She was laying by me and rubbing my back. And she said, "What's wrong Mama?" I told her I was up feeling a little scared. She said, "Why Mama?" I told her I didn't know. She said, "You don't have to be afraid. There are no monsters here." And she rubbed my back some more and kissed me. And then I fell asleep in an instant.

She's just so wonderful I could cry right now. I can't believe that I get to have this little one in my life.

Happy Birthday Sweet Girl. You are an amazing gift to us and we love you with all of our hearts.