Thursday, January 29, 2009

Whitetrash Workout.

Just a quick blog about my workout this morning... I found this video in our cabinet called "Buff Moms". I have no idea where I got it, but it's super cheesy and weird. They do moves like, "Lunge and pick up those toys!" Gross, I know. I put it in and Claire and I decided to do a workout. First of all I don't have little weights so I had to use two cans of beans, kidney and black. Claire used her pez dispensers. Also she got naked and was doing the workout with me. It was really hard to be serious about it. But we did it! A whole 40 minute workout... which is the most I've done since I had Faye. I am NOT IN SHAPE.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Faye's new ears and BRRRR.

Today was a big day! Faye got her ears pierced. It was much harder for me to watch Faye get her ears pierced than it was for me to watch Claire, and I don't know why. And having Claire watch didn't help. She cried just as hard as Faye did. It really was a sad situation. Faye was screaming... Claire was screaming and then she started pulling on her own earrings. But everyone is fine now. Everyones ears look beautiful. And I'm glad it's over.

And also, I'm excited for it to warm up again. Playing outside has been... well... really cold. I've been bundling up the girls like there is a snow storm outside. I know we have it pretty good here but I'm just not used to temperatures in the low 60's.

If you look really close at this one you can see the little red ball on top of Claire's hat. Her new obsession is running around in the grass field in front of our house. She gets lost in there. It's kind of scary. That whole morning I could just see that little ball on her head bobbing up and down.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Beach babies.

Last week was amazing and much needed. We spent four whole days at the beach! The weather was perfect... as you all know. And now we're supposed to have rain all week... we'll see about that. But I just wanted to post some pictures from our beach days before I forget. And I really have nothing cool to say about so I'll just put up pictures...

Friday, January 16, 2009

Finally... some real sleep.

I can't believe I haven't blogged about this yet... geez! Well, Claire is sleeping in her own bed! (For most of the night.) Hallelujah. Here's what we did... you might not agree but that's okay because it's totally working for us right now. We moved her little toddler bed into our room. She has her own little corner. I got her some princess bedding, which she got to pick out and she loves it. And now at nap time and bedtime she lays down by herself and falls asleep. We are all sleeping so much better! Claire always comes and gets into bed with me when Lane gets up. And she can do that for as long as she wants to. There's nothing like a morning cuddle sesh. But I do think Claire sleeps better. Before she was tossing and turning and we were literally getting kicked in the face all night annoying! Now she barely moves. It's wonderful for everyone. So that's that. I'll keep my fingers crossed that she keeps it up.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Little girlies.


Yes! This is my first time uploading a video and it worked! It's just a little video of Faye being the little darling that she is.

I've been having a field day taking pictures and videos of the girls. I've been taking a lot of videos of Faye because I don't have many of Claire when she was just a couple months old and I really wish I did. This age is so amazing. She's just starting to discover her hands and try to grab things. She found her feet the other day, which is like the cutest thing ever. She's just sweet and such a blessing and I still look at her and can't believe she's ours. And Claire is so good with her now. She really wishes that Faye could play with her. That time will come... too quickly. But she loves to kiss her and hug her. She calls her "Sissy" and "Faye Faye". She also loves to make her all different kinds of food in her little kitchen. She brings it over to Faye and feeds it to her. Let's hope she doesn't do this with real food any time soon. Yikes. Scary. Another thing, she is finally being really helpful when it comes to Faye. It's really wonderful. She goes and gets me diapers. She likes to do it at night especially. I ask her to go get Faye a diaper out of the nursery and she gets her little flashlight out and looks around in Faye's room till she finds a diaper. I can't believe how Claire has changed. She is suddenly a "kid". A straight up "kid." It's crazy. It's nice for me to be able to carry on a conversation with her during the day, as opposed to talking to no one, since it's just the three of us alone all day. I think so far every age has been my favorite. No but really, these babies, they just keep getting better and better. And now for some pictures.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


The last few days have been absolutely PERFECT! Me and the girls have already spent two days at the beach this week. (And I have NO pictures to prove it!) It's been about 75 degrees... no wind. Wonderful. On Monday we went with Amy and Parker... always fun. Parker and Claire were being pretty brave and running out into the water. I'm sure Amy I looked crazy, chasing after them in the water... fully dressed. But the kids loved it. They got completely covered in sand and completely tired out... which makes for a great nap. Today the girls and I went with Noelle. Claire always has the best time with Noelle. She played in the water and made a new little friend named Erin... she's 4. Erin would build sandcastles and Claire would go over and destroy them. Typical. But the last few days made me think about how grateful I am to live in such a beautiful place. I mean, who gets to go hang out at the beach half naked in January?! We've got it pretty good here. And then on the drive home today Noelle and I were talking about how we take so much for granted... not to change the subject but just being thankful for the awesome weather brought this to mind. I have so much to be thankful for. An amazing husband. Two beautiful healthy baby girls. A roof over my head. Food on my table. Clothes, clothes and more clothes. God has given me more than I could ever ask for. I need to be grateful to him. I have nothing to complain about. So I need to stop. I just feel selfish lately and I'm tired of it. I don't want to take life for granted. It's so short and I'm learning this more and more as I watch Claire grow up. The last two years have flown by. So moms, love your kids, enjoy your husbands and try and have a little more fun. Random blog today, I know.

Friday, January 9, 2009

The new me in 8 weeks.

Today I started reading a book. "8 Weeks to Vibrant Health". So far it's pretty eye opening for me. Since the birth of Faye I've been having problem after problem when it comes to my health. I got two bad colds and from that I got fluid in my ears which led to severe dizziness for almost 2 1/2 weeks. Since then I've had I guess what you'd call "tension" headaches. I've had a headache for almost 3 weeks. It's not constant but they last for hours at a time, several times a day and they're awful. They start at my temples and ears and radiate around to my neck. I've never really experienced many headaches in my lifetime, so having one for about 3 weeks straight is pretty lame. And then as you know I began feeling overwhelming anxiety about "germs". And from that I've created intestinal problems. Just stomach aches and nausea... due to huge amounts of stress. So today I read a few chapters of this book. It's shown me so far that a lot of what I'm experiencing is due to the many major changes that have occurred in the past few months... for example, bringing a new little person into the world, helping Claire through her transition, trying to make time for Lane, keeping my house clean (impossible), making sure the bills get paid, etc. And from all this I'm not only experiencing emotional problems but it's turned into physical problems. I wish I could go back to the good old days. When I'd get super stressed I'd just break out in a huge rash all over my neck. That was so much easier. So, anyhow, I'm going to do research with the help of this book. I'm obviously missing some important things in my diet. I'm going to try some different things, like upping my vitamin intake, trying some different supplements, and staying away from things in my diet that don't benefit me in any way. Other helpful things are enjoying life more (obviously), making time for me, praying (always good), exercising, sleeping when I can (hard to do with a baby), and just trying to have a more positive attitude. Geez. I sound really dorky. But really, I think I'm onto something here and I'm excited about it.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Claire is two! Can you believe it?!

We celebrated Claire's 2nd birthday at Doc Burnsteins Ice Cream Parlor. It was really fun! It was kind of crazy. There were two girls helping us out, they worked there. They tried to get the kids to play a bunch of games which was really freaking funny, because two year olds don't play games. Haha. But it was entertaining for all of the adults to watch these babies try and participate in games like Duck Duck Goose and Musical Chairs and my personal favorite, Find the Timer! If you were there you know how silly that one was. I loved it. Claire had a really good time and said her favorite part was "pwesents". Of course. It was good to get out and spend a couple hours with all the ones we love. I'm glad everyone made it. And the best part for me??? We got to pack up Claire's presents in the car, put the kids in their car seats and drive away. NO CLEAN UP! It was perfect. Lane and I both said "How cool is this? We just got to leave and didn't have to do anything." When we got back to the house my parents had another surprise for Claire. A Radio Flyer Horse. It's pretty cool and Claire named him "Boy", which I think is super funny and cute. Now for some pictures. I had to include a few of Faye... just because.

Blowing out her candle!

Trying to make the kids play "limbo". Haha.

This is "Boy".

Cool fairy costume handmade by Auntie Marilyn.

Tummy time.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Moving on.

So, I had quite a few responses to my post on germs. Thanks for all the encouragement. I really does mean a lot to me. I've been talking to a lot of people about my fears and that is helping greatly. I've just realized that it's so silly for me to be so terrified of things that I can't control... like sickness. I've been doing a lot more praying the past few days and that is helping. I just think it's funny that I'm more afraid of catching something than I was about going into labor and pushing a baby out without any drugs. Isn't that weird? I think so. I just need to let it go. Give it up. I know it'll be a process... it's not going to happen over night. I've been talking to my mom about it. She suggested putting away my hand sanitizer for a few days... or maybe using it only 5 times a day instead of 25 times.... yes I do sanitize my hands that often... crazy, I know. I just have to slowly give up my rituals. For example, lately I open doors in my house with my sleeve, or I turn on the water with a towel, or I flush the toilet with my elbow... I feel like I'm sounding crazy... but this is good... I need to get it out in the open for my sake. I HAVE to stop. I know I can be clean without being completely obsessed. Lord help me. I found some verses. I rarely read my bible anymore, I wish I did, but these are ones that have always helped me through rough times, and ones that apply to my life right now.

"I sought the Lord, and He heard me and delivered me from all my fears." Psalm34:4

"I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears; surely I will heal you." 2 Kings 20:5

I've just felt like my heart is breaking because I'm missing out on time with Claire and Faye. I don't want to be this crazy mom that would rather clean than spend time with them. And I don't want to be so stressed out that I lose my temper all day long and take out my tension on Claire. If you know me, you know I don't write very personal things on my blog... so this is a big step. But I feel good about it.

Friday, January 2, 2009

New hair 2009... and germs.

Noelle cut my hair. It's great. I don't have to do anything with it. Just blow dry it for like 2 minutes after I wash it and I'm done. Pretty freaking sweet. It's exactly what I needed. Thanks Noelle!

On a more serious note... I have become a crazy person... a germaphobe if you will. It sucks. On the bright side I'm completely aware that my thoughts are irrational and illogical. But what do I do about it is the question. And it goes a lot deeper than this but I don't really want to get into the details. My anxiety about this phobia has left me totally worn down. I'm so tired. I've had a headache for two weeks... I assume due to the stress of trying to keep germs away from me and my family. I know I need to realize every moment of every day that there are things in life that cannot be controlled. And I guess that's what this all comes down to. I am a control freak. I hate it. It's robbing me of everyday joys. If you read this... please pray for me. I'm tired of being consumed by this. I went to the health food store today and got some rescue remedy... I'll see if it works. I'm hoping for the best!