Monday, September 28, 2009


I stole this from Krista and I just had to post it. It's such a sweet picture.

Monday, September 21, 2009

We love Disneyland.

My mom and dad were planning a trip to Disneyland for my moms birthday. On Thursday I found out that Lane was working all weekend long. So, my mom invited me and the girls to go along with them. I asked Claire if she'd like to go. And that's what she talked about for the next two days. First thing in the morning on Saturday, at 5:30 am. "Mama, are we gonna have a special day today?! Are we going to Disneyland?!" She woke up happy and excited. The drive down was easy. I was waiting for a break down. It never came. We got to the hotel at 11:30 and they let us check in. Wow. Normally, we'd be waiting till 4:00 to check in. This day was too goo to be true so far. We took the shuttle to the park and pretty much walked right in... it wasn't really busy at all. Again, too good to be true. And the cool part is, the entire trip was easy and relaxing. No one freaked out, no tantrums, no accidents. When I picture a last minute trip to Disneyland with an almost 3 year old and an 11 month old, I picture chaos. But this was just the opposite and I loved it.

We went on a few rides. Claire's favorite was Small World. She was in in complete awe, jaw dropped, the entire time. The one time she kind of broke down all day was when we had to pry her body from the little boat when the ride was over.

Later in the evening we were on a mission to find a princess dress. We found one. (Which Claire has been wearing for almost 3 days now.) So she put it on and danced on Main Street while we waited for the fireworks to start. She's very very proud of herself in her little dress. The day after we got it, she stood in front of the mirror in the hotel and looked at herself. She'd ask us questions and talk to us but look at herself the whole time and randomly ask us, "How do I look?" What is she going to be like when she's 16? I'm scared.

And Faye... Well, she was great. Sweet and precious, as usual.

And thanks mom and dad for inviting us! We had so much fun!

Monday, September 14, 2009


Yesterday, I got to go out for the day... No husband, no kids. It was pretty amazing. Friends and I started our morning with breakfast then headed down to Chumash Casino to play some bingo. I told Lane I'd probably be home early. I seriously go crazy when I'm away from the family for too long. But we got to the casino and we were informed that the game takes about four hours and we still had an hour to wait before it started. I got a little freaked out. But all the girls were saying, "Enjoy your time! Have fun!" And so I did. It was fun... and funny. The game of bingo brings in some crazy people. It was very... interesting. And no one ever let me in on the secrets! Bingo is hard. I thought you go in and blot your paper, the goal being to get a straight line. But oh no. There are all kinds of patterns, and tricks. It was wild and my brain is not used to working that way. So when we left, I was exhausted, my head was throbbing and my eyes were burning... thank you smokers.

Thank you friends for a fun day out! It was so nice to get and out be with adults for ten hours straight!

So, I get home. And my beautiful family was there waiting! I got down on my knees and Faye came running... and crying! So precious. She grabbed my face and gave me big baby kisses. And Claire ran up to me and said, "Mommy! Mommy! I miss you!" I got teary. This just shows how much time I DON'T spend away from these girls. But those ten hours made me appreciate them a lot more. So having some time away is definitely good for me. I need it sometimes.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009


Great things are happening! So I posted that blog last week about Faye. Night one: She cried for a total of 15 minutes. I nursed her once. Night two: She cried again for a total of 15 minutes. She woke up at 5:00 and I brought her into our bed. Then we went on our camping trip. It was disastrous sleeping with two small children in a tent cabin. No one slept. Oh well. But night 3 at home... OH MY GOODNESS!!! Faye slept through the night. I think she woke up once and was crying... I didn't get up. To be honest, I was so extremely exhausted from our long weekend in Yosemite that I probably heard her but I just couldn't bring myself to get up. Sad. But I slept the whole night through for the first time in about a year and a half. And I feel soooo good. I feel alive today. It's wonderful! If I had known it was going to be this easy I would have done this a long time ago.


Oh Yosemite. The most beautiful place I've ever been to. The weekend started out rough. I get my period about once every 57 days and it just happened to fall on the weekend of our long awaited vacay. So... I was a complete wreck. I was on a hormonal roller coaster ride and all of my family knew it and felt it. Sorry family! I know the first day was a rough one! After things calmed down, I was able to take it all in and enjoy Yosemite, which is by far the most incredible place I've ever been to. People that don't believe there is a God, might just change their minds a little bit when they see this place. It's insane. Those of you who have been there know exactly what I'm talking about.

We stayed in a teeny tiny tent cabin. Four canvas walls and two really rusty, squeaky beds. It was perfect and just what I needed. The kids were covered in dirt from head to toe the whole time and it didn't even phase me.

We spent day one riding bikes. We rode for miles and miles. The weather was perfect and the girls loved it. They took some really good naps in the bike trailer. Day two was spent hiking, which was amazing. The hike was only about 3 miles total. It was relaxing and the views were incredible. After our hike we rode our bikes to the river and put our feet in. The water was freeeezing. Faye took a tumble and dove face first into the water. She went all the way under. I jumped over to her and pulled her up. She coughed for a few seconds then smiled. I then proceeded to have a panic attack. Sorry family! I know I went a little overboard with that one. Ooops. But the funny part is... as I was rushing to pull Faye up out of the water I accidentally took a picture, which I'll post. Weird. So after our trip to the river Adam and I went for a run, which was really cool. By far the most fun I've had on a run.

Yosemite was awesome. I can't wait to go back. We're already planning our next trip.

Picture time.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

OPERATION: Get some real sleep and become a functioning human being.


Faye sleeps with us. She's an all night nurser. She doesn't take a pacifier so basically I'm screwed. I know a lot of people don't agree with "the family bed". But I loved it with Claire and I've loved it with Faye... until now. I'm going crazy!!!

The past few weeks she's waking up every 20-30 minutes. She sits up in bed and whines and then nurses herself back to sleep. So she is on the boob ALLLLL night long. It's insane.

Lately, I've been pretty wretched. Impatient, mean, my fuse is about a centimeter long, my skin is breaking out, I just feel unwell. This is not good! I want to feel alive and healthy and right now I feel the exact opposite. I don't sleep! Really I don't. Lane asked me today, "How are you even functioning? You get 4 hours of sleep every night... if that." I don't know how I'm functioning! I just am because I have to!

So tonight... as I'm typing this... Faye is asleep in her own room! Aaaaahhhhh! We'll see how long this first stretch of sleep is. Lord, have mercy!

The next few nights are going to be rough. But if I want to sleep I have to stick it out and not give in to this...

I know! How could you not just give in and do whatever she asks??? She's precious. But of course she doesn't look that precious when she's screaming in your face at 3 am.

So moms, if you have any tricks/tips I want them. Let me in on your secrets. I know I've done it once before but I feel lost right now and I don't remember how we did this the first time around. Help.